one step at a time

I had the strangest and one of the most eye opening scolding yesterday. grabe pinagalitan ako ni CJ... wahaha... well kahApon yun around this time... pinarealize niya sakin na I should forget about red na and all those churvaness about letting go and being so paranoid and just be myself and just be courageous daw.. tas umabot pa kami sa point na I'm not ready to love pa daw kasi duwag daw ako.. and every word he said made cracks on my close mind... I'm starting to rethink all my upcoming plans with red... I'm planning to actually talk to him because of what CJ said... to end everything with a nice little closure... I have been one hell of a big negation this past few months.. feeling ok when in fact I'm shattered inside.. and because of what Cj said to me.. I'm starting to rethink everything... hay... I hope this realizations would do me good... and also because of this I realized that each day I gain more experiences and become more mature and Hopefully it makes me a better person.. hay...