bitterness

When you thought everything was back to the way it should be you suddenly realize that you're still not over it... After series of events I've realized this sad fact.. I'm not yet over what he did, I still haven't closed my doors to this sad little event in my life, I am still affected with every little thing he do and say and of course with what he did. I'm still affect when people mention him or question me about him... I have been lying to myself this past 2 months... I had this short mantra that I kept repeating to myself "wala na kong pakialam sa kanya.. wala na" but the mantra stop working when all of us sudden series of events lead me to accept the fact that I'm still affected by him.. But I have this strange feeling that I don't like him anymore, that I'm just affected by him because I still can't accept the fact that I have been so stupid to assume so many stuffs which lead to the immediate demise of my heart... People say I have every right to be mad.. but for me I have cause my own pain, my assumptions caused this heartache not him...

Faith really likes having fun with peoples feeling... when I thought everything was finish that I've closed this chapter of my life, people then kept on bringing him up, he then returned to my life by talkin or textin me (but not often like before),and he starts talkin or chattin with my close friends and askin bout me... I just hope that this doesn't affect me to much that it would wretch havoc in my life ones again... I have been to many ups and downs like most people but I'm wishing that this would not cause another down in my life...