been having anxiety like attacks lately

hmmm... I have this nagging feeling in my heart that something bad is going to happen, and I'm scared because I trust my instincts. I just hope its nothing major! I'm still not stable right now and if anything bad really does happened I don't know if I will be able to hold my act.

For the past months, I have been pushing myself to believe that I am happy and contented as they say make your soul believe what you want it to believe, and I'm currently liking the results (good grades, fun people around me), there is lesser negative aura floating around me but I still do revert back to my old nega self once in a while. So I hope this nagging feeling would not cause another imbalance in my life, I was never a strong person, wounds cut deep... so I hope whatever it is, would just lightly tap me and go away.

the attack of emo me...

been sad for weeks now, the cause is quite unknown... but I guess the fact that no one seems to realize this is an added heartache... I told a lot of people last week that I was sad.. but I guess nobody believed me... I have perfected the mask of neutrality I guess.. Emotions are always hard for me to express.. hay hay hay... Im so sad right now :(

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Got so agitated earlier in Megamall.....

I really hate how people around me doesn't seem to care... They Just assume that I'm happy and contented with life when its fucking obvious that I'm not.... My friends and Family are the same.... I don't know where to go buti nalang mej sanay na kong magisa

Sana matagalan ko ang solitude... Sana I can be strong enough to last a lifetime holding on to my pains alone...

I dont believe that I'll still find my prince charming somewhere out there... I have lost my hope and dreams of having a perfect marriage but if it do comes I'll thank the Lord God for it....

Finished our first surgical prod for this sem

so tired... but my day is not yet finished. I'm off to para class now and will do a lot of stuff until later tonight....

anlungkot lungkot ko ngayon... andami nanamang tumatakbo sa utak ko... never na talaga ako binigyan ng kaligayahan ng aking sorority... for the first time nireregret ko ang decision ko sa pagsali sa kanya... I could have done better!!! I dont deserve such people.....

I hate

I hate crying alone! like when you're on the edge of breaking down and you're all alone in a crowd. Nobody to hug you but yourself.... you try to pretend that everything okay but inside your going crazy. When all you want to do is cry with your friends around you trying to make you smile....