been having anxiety like attacks lately

hmmm... I have this nagging feeling in my heart that something bad is going to happen, and I'm scared because I trust my instincts. I just hope its nothing major! I'm still not stable right now and if anything bad really does happened I don't know if I will be able to hold my act.

For the past months, I have been pushing myself to believe that I am happy and contented as they say make your soul believe what you want it to believe, and I'm currently liking the results (good grades, fun people around me), there is lesser negative aura floating around me but I still do revert back to my old nega self once in a while. So I hope this nagging feeling would not cause another imbalance in my life, I was never a strong person, wounds cut deep... so I hope whatever it is, would just lightly tap me and go away.