after a long AWOL

I felt a chill ran down my back when I read the date of my last post... Hay... NOV 1 2008... the date diane died... I know my entry that day didn't have any stuffs about her because I still didn't knew it then.. Grabe.. I haven't been writing much.. sa online world... dahil sa fact na halos lahat ng naisusulat ko ay letter para kay diane and I don't know how my friends would react if they read it... I'm still in a huge mess.. my emotions are still in shambles.. I haven't been working properly as a human this pass few months and that because of diane's death... I'm not blaming her or what... Its my own decision to be like this... I could have cried it all out before but I have this strange feeling that if I release all my sadness that I would forget about her... AND NOW I WANT TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD... DIANE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH... YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND... AND NO ONE CAN REPLACE YOU IN MY LIFE